Is happily stealing someones wireless and should be in bed

[loobee]

Stolen from kleine_aster san.
I'm always stealing your memes Alex XD 

A. List seven habits/quirks/facts about yourself
B. Tag seven people to do the same - Giving free will on that one
C. Do not tag the person who tagged you or say that you tag "whoever wants to do it"- see freewill

Hard thinking of interesting things about myself, said the worst to Miss Alex so wont repeat it here (too sad) and to try and think of things you may not know about me already as I’m too honest and tell people out right. And it’s 1am here so if I’m going of on some weird tangent ignore me. So erm.....

1. I’m still very much a kid at heart. I still watch cartoons for goodness sake and I don’t just mean anime *laughs* I love cute things, I cry watching Pokemon or Iron giant (yeah laugh at me) I want to be the hero who saves the day in the video games I play. I smile so much when Okami makes the flowers bloom, or Phoenix Wright shouts ‘OBJECTION’ on a case. I don’t think I’ll ever grow up and I really never want to.

2 . I’m alone quite a lot; it’s not a lie when I say I’m lonely, because I don’t lie to friends. I live at home with my mum in a tiny village where I know no one. Some of my friends and dear sister live in the town over, some live very far away and all have their own lives and families and it’s so very hard to see them. So I get lonely a lot. I call, text, email and send a pigeon(joke) to stay in touch but you know I miss their faces and it’s hard seeing them having lives and no longer being part of it. I don’t feel resentful just sad because I want my life to echo theirs. It will one day I’m sure but till then I’m alone. Give me frog to kiss so I’ll get my prince *lol*

3. I think far too much, seriously I can’t do anything without plotting the pros and cons or the where and wherefores. Even a haircut is a precisely thought out plan. When I plan a trip to see my friends I have to know the exact times, where I’m going and so forth. And I can never do anything without getting peoples opinion on it. I have to be doing something or I get completely bored, I have notes and doodles everywhere. I’m an insomniac because I can’t turn my mind off at night.

4. I’m an extrovert trapped in an introverts body, a weird paradox I know but it’s true. I’m so terribly shy but sometimes I do things that even shocks myself. I wanted to go to a con with friends on the net...I went, do the mad trolly dash at the supermarket, dive bomb into the ball pool at the kiddie park and I embarrassed the local bully at my last work place and made him shut up all week with one well placed insult. I can do this yet I’m so shy? I’m the girl who won’t mutter a word with strangers, yet when I met my friend Yenny I couldn’t shut up talking, I’m the one scared of going anywhere by myself yet I went to London on my own to watch LOTR with some online geek friends. I’m a very strange girl and don’t understand myself sometimes, but sad to say the shy side wins the most.

5. I’m lazy, or more correctly have no self discipline. I have since I was young always wanted to be an artist; it’s my one true dream. Yet because of that lazy side I never get round to doing what I am supposed to be doing. I really need people to push me or I’ll procrastinate. It’s sad because of it my dream will never come true. Though this I feel leads from my totally lack of confidence. I feel I could have accomplished anything if I had not lost it. I feel I’m too old to even try now, who wants to hire and old artist when there are so many talented youngsters out there.

6. This is probably the worst thing about me that no matter how much someone says they like me or I’m a good person I seem to twist it round to being disliked. It stems from the fact I was bullied so much at school to see no self worth in myself. I’m not as bad now, I see I’m just as good a person as anyone else but it’s this weird little mental block I have. Add to that I get upset over the most stupid shit but at least I’m aware of that *looks embarrassed*

7. I can’t throw anything away. Seriously my room is so full of junk and books I don’t really need but I think ‘you know I just may need it in the future’ That’s why I’m always tripping over old toys, my books are keeping my bed up and half of them are from the early 80’s. What do I need a My Little Pony album for at my age?

Guess you can see I'm a little happier today as the posts only got a bit of the grumpy me in there*lol*

Comments

[kurosaki-akane.livejournal.com]

Many of us are kids at hearts, ne? (^^)

I spend most of my time alone, too, but I don't feel lonely often ;;; I like my loneliness, haha (=w=;
But if you want to spend more time with your friends, you should do something to make this become true ne!

About your art, it's never late if you have talent @@;
This is not a model career, people aren't going to care about how old or how young you are, because what sells is your art, not yourself. No one knows artists' ages anyway, unless they do research, how does it matter? If you like it, I say go for it!

[loobeeinthesky.livejournal.com]

It's true, I'm kind of proud to be young at heart and it's fun. Were all Near's playing with our toys *laughs*

Oh I'd swap with you I get so lonely I always want people to chat to even if I bore the hell out of them *lol* I do get to see my friends but often only for a few days. They work I have to find work and it gets hard to find space in all that time to see them. But hopefully once I start work again I'll meet new people that live closer.

Thanks Akane chan ♥ I believe I just got jaded at how many young talented people there are more so than me that don't make it as an artist. I always thought if they can't I don't stand a chance, but then how will I ever know if I don't try? I actually want to design characters for computer games as lame as that sounds.