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I’ve stolen this off Ciara as I’m supposed to be writing but I’m having a really bad writers block (God! I will have my RP log done by Sunday morning I swear, come on brain, work.) So rambling may get me in the zone so to speak *pouts*

10 things you wish you could say to ten different people right me now

• You’re my closest friend but I feel you’ve forgotten about me lately. I know you’ll always be busy but remember I’ve been there for 11 years and I hope to be there for another 11 because you’re like a sister to me.

• God I’ve known you for so long yet I still get really shy with you, what is wrong with me? *smacks* But that’s changing lately, I feel because I’ve been able to talk to you more without being fearful I look a fool and I’m thankful we’re still friends. Your love for the things you like is so addicting not to mention I want to steal your creativity. The haters can go to hell because ILU ♥

• I’m really glad we had a heart to heart and I got the chance to talk to you properly and clear the air. ILU to bits and think I’ve been a giant pain in the arse to you but thanks for being there despite that. Also I adore that we share so much in common and we have to geek out as geeks rule ♥

• Your one of the people I most adore but I feel like there is a distance between us lately, imaginary or not I want to break it because your one of the sweetest people I know and I don’t want to lose you. Sorry if I sound stupid, but I know it’s my fault. Failing that you’re going in my closet for being awesome.

• You really hurt me, a lot. But I miss you and still wish there was a way to save what once was. I just wish you'd given me a chance and talked about it. I never meant to get depressed ;A;

• Don’t leave me. Every day I worry for you my little man, I don’t care that you’re not a person but you’ll always be family to me.

• Missy one day you HAVE to give me one of your cake recipes. You’re such a sweetheart ♥

• I got really hurt that you weren’t there when I needed you the most. But I still love you to death.

• I miss you and love our rare little chats. But I hope with all my heart that life will go your way for once and people will stop being self centred and realise they have such a sweet girl in their lives. You deserve more my dear *hugs* YOU’RE AWESOME!!!!!

• I think you’re a wonderful person who is always there for her friends and as a fellow Brit (oh shit gave it away!;_;) it’s always so great that we can share things in common because of it.

09 things about yourself

• Despite being a naturally shy person and being nervous to talk to others I actually really love chatting and being with people.

• I’m not the healthiest person ever. I was born with eczema and developed asthma aged 6. Basically I’m one big allergy and can hardly use anything normal people can or do normal things, taking a shower is such a chore for me. I’m allergic to perfume, animal hair (weird as I’m fine with my dog), chemicals, smoking, dust, Oh man you name, it I’ll be a red blotch. Despite that I just get on with it.

• My dad committed suicide so I’m very protective of my family.

• I hate people who lie. Honesty is something I cherish even if it’s something I don’t want to hear.

• I let people walk all over me because I put others feelings and wants before my own. Yet on the other hand I’m not a fool.

• I see dead people LOL! Well not sure but I’ve had weird things happen to me like something sitting on my bed next to me or a shadow running past me. My mum said when I was young she’d often catch me talking to no one in particular. I’m also quite empathic and know when something is wrong or not right.

• I’m a kid at heart and always will have a Peter Pan syndrome. I blame it on being a daydreamer; I always see things differently and see the beauty in things more often than not.

• I’m quite knowledgeable, okay it doesn’t come across online because I don’t want to look like smarty pants but I’m a nerd. I’m always the go to girl among my friends and family, if anyone has a problem or wants’ to solve things you can bet they always pick on me.

• I’m so lazy. It’s a serious problem for me because when you’re a want to be artist it isn’t wise to bum around and put things off.

08 ways to win your heart

• Be yourself. I never judge people so don’t try to pretend round me because I don’t mind who you are.

• Be trustworthy.

• Just be a friend. Bad times and good be there for me and I’ll always be there for you.

• Be intelligent, not saying I am but now and again I like pondering on things like the universe and all that jazz ^^

• Show me how life is to be lived. I sometimes lock myself away from the world and need people to drag me out and see that the world is as wonderful as I believe it to be.

• Be imaginative, be a dreamer.

• Be silly, daft, a spaz, whatever. Just be a laugh and laugh back ^^ never be afraid to make a fool of yourself.

• Simply just be a nice person, don't bully or think it's funny to put others down. 

07 things that cross your mind a lot

• I hope the guys are online to annoy. Stop being a dork.

• Stop being shy!!!!!

• Cheer up emo kid.

• Give me job, any job, I want a job that’s more than 8 hours a week *whinge whinge*

• Oh god where did I put my drawing? Where’s my rubber gone now? OH MY GOD THERE’S INK EVERYWHERE!!!!! *clumsiest artist eva*

• Text me woman!!!! (Best mate has a habit of not texting me back, a lot *pouts*

• Oh I don’t want to get out of bed, noooo you can’t make me ;_;

06 things you do before you fall asleep

• Get washed, brush teeth.

• Try and find PJ’s I slung somewhere in my mess of a room.

• Read books or comics to relax. Maybe watch telly for a bit.

• Hug doggie goodnight ♥

• Get a drink and make sure I have a note book near my bed for those half dreaming revelations I know I’ll forget.

• Take inhalers.

05 people who mean a lot (Not in order)

• Ciara

• Alex

• Akane

• Katherine

• Kyrie

04 things you're wearing right now

• Striped jumper(Matt eat your heart out)

• Skinny jeans (so tight my legs fallen asleep ;A;)

• Kawaii Pirate bunny necklace.

• Hello Kitty socks

03 songs that you listen to often (currently)

• Brothers on a Hotel bed – Death Cab for Cutie

• Me and the moon – Something Corporate. (Best song about wife killing hubby, EVAR!)

• Children of December – The Slip

02 things you want to do before you die

• Live ^^ Seriously I want to be successful in whatever comes my way and love life. For once ^^

• Travel.

01 confession

• My depression has a lot to do with how I was treated in the past by some ex friends and because of it I still have a hard time with feeling I fit in and that friends aren’t doing what they did to me. Basically I got back with some old school friends as I was lonely and because my best friends live so far away. Biggest mistake I EVER made. I forgot what they were like, that underneath the sugar wouldn’t melt exterior they were complete and utter bitches. Took me ages to realise it and while it was slowly dawning on me, I let them tear me down, verbally abuse me and use me. Basically I was kicked so much I couldn’t get up and what trust I had was shatterd. Even my best friend afterwards said I was withdrawn and wasn’t laughing as much as I normally did. I eventually saw the light (took a bottle being thrown at me to do it) but I did it and I don’t regret telling them to fuck off. What I do regret is letting them use me as their punching bag because their lives were so stark they brought me down with them. I’m slowly getting back on my feet with the RL friends I adore and some online ones that have stuck with me and I love them for it. I hope one day to get my confidence back and best of all my happiness. Getting there though despite some hiccups.
 

*Note to self* Do not go near Top Shop when there is a sale on. Did you really need to buy a jacket that you can only wear in summer and what's a tomboy going to do with such a pretty flowery top? ;A;

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Whahhh thank you Nami but we all know Lucy is dork ^^