Ow!!!

[loobee]

Well I know I’m clumsy but today took the biscuit, I’ve bashed my hand pretty badly tripping over the carpet. Its okay just really bruised and hurts like hell (I’m typing with my left hand, so not easy) It’s so not fair I’m dying to draw some art as I’m in such an inspired mood today. I’m glad about that as for the last 2 weeks I’ve been very blah about fandom and everything really and I don’t know why that is. Maybe being gone for a week makes you feel too much on the outside or maybe I’m just tired of all the arguments, all I know is I’ve been feeling very shy since I’ve been back. I guess it’s also because I’m just so bored at home, I can’t wait to find work just to get me out and doing something but staying in all the time. Guess I’m just feeling lonely again, everyone has someone they can talk to but I just…well I just have me.

Finally decided to lay Gevanni to rest, I’m not doing anything with him so I’ll delete him soon. I’m so sad Sigil is no more but I had a lot of fun playing for the short time I was there and of course its great fun to still read some yummy MN and Ci’s Matt being a dork. As for Matt in Nihil I’m having a long hard think on whether to keep him or let him go. I do love playing him but I’m a rotten Role-player. Everyone has plots going on and ideas and I’m just too thick to even get him out of his room *le sigh* I just know I’m one of those bad role players I read about that sit on characters doing nothing. If Ciara wasn’t such a darling I know I’d be booted by now, maybe I wasn’t meant to be a Roleplayer as I’ve never been a good writter.

*goes to rest wrist* 

Comments

[kurosaki-akane.livejournal.com]

I hope your hand will get better soon!

Sorry to hear that you're deleting Gevanni (T T) Wouldn't you like to at least keep him there to randomly play him at ic_secrets or the dressingroom? ;

[loobeeinthesky.livejournal.com]

It’s getting better. I had such a cute idea for a Near picture of him surrounded by computer monitors spying on Mello and I want my hand to stop hurting so I can draw it *pouts*

I’ll see if I can get him in one. I just find Gevanni hard to play with no one to boss him around because I gave him such a boring personality T_T I’ve also been a bit shy about playing in ic_secrets since posting as Matt and getting swamped with comments from great players. I know I’m not a good RPer so I get really nervous about playing with strangers even if it is for fun because I’m too slow and clumsy ;_;

[kurosaki-akane.livejournal.com]

Ah, so playing with many people makes you uncomfortable? It's a pity, but I understand it. Especially after all the drama some people are creating around RP, it's normal to be wary ;

Well, you must do what you truly wish to. You shouldn't feel forced to play if you don't really want to do it.

[loobeeinthesky.livejournal.com]

*Nods* I don’t want to be shy round others but I just can’t help it, maybe it’s to do with the fact when it comes to RP I’ve hardly done any really and what I did do was very awkward. And yeah I get really nervous of what others think, I know I’ll always stick up for my friends but when it comes to myself I’m not very good at it T_T

I guess with more practice I’ll get my confidence back but it’s kind of died off at the moment. But thanks for letting me playing him with you guys for a short time, it was fun. I loved messing about when he was cursed ^_^

[split-psychosis.livejournal.com]

kjhhkjfh noooooooooo no dropping Matt ;A;!

[loobeeinthesky.livejournal.com]

I just don't know Ci, I do love playing him which is why I'm having a hard time deciding whether to stop doing any RP what-so ever. But I just feel I suck and I find RPing hard because I find writing difficult. People would have more fun with a better Matt really, one who can plot not just bumble around (T_T)

[Random RP Journal Wut]

[cold-conundrum.livejournal.com]

You love playing him - then you keep him! Everyone feels they suck - I know I feel I suck but I do it anyway :/ People really do like your Matt, we just haven't seen much of him. But that's ok. Besides, there'll be plotting soon. I promise. And if you want he and Pharos can play a log together! =3=;

I love your Matt TAT

Re: [Random RP Journal Wut]

[loobeeinthesky.livejournal.com]

As much as I love him I have to think what's for the best and I honestly can't RP to save my life. I'm rubbish at plotting, I get ideas but I'm too nervous to go ahead with them. I'm also scared of doing logs because I have no writing skills and lack the imagination to do something(T_T) I don't know I'll just have to think it through.

You don't suck no one sucks in Nihil :)

[Random RP Journal Wut LOL PROFESSOR LAYTON |D]

[noprofessorno.livejournal.com]

Muu ;A; It's only a matter of practice ne! If you ever want you can practice with me. And like you said no one sucks at Nihil, including you. =3=

*clings and squishes*

Re: [Random RP Journal Wut LOL PROFESSOR LAYTON |D]

[loobeeinthesky.livejournal.com]

I'll have to see hon, just have to get over feeling like a shitty player and get over my shyness for playing.

And LOL what are you doing with a Prof journal? XD

Re: [Random RP Journal Wut LOL PROFESSOR LAYTON |D]

[noprofessorno.livejournal.com]

You'll get over it! Don't worry!! X3

LOL My friend made me join a dressing room |D So I ended up being Luke for the lulz. |3 <3

Re: [Random RP Journal Wut LOL PROFESSOR LAYTON |D]

[loobeeinthesky.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Aww cute, I so want to play that game. Still no Red DS's in stock though D:

Re: [Random RP Journal Wut LOL PROFESSOR LAYTON |D]

[noprofessorno.livejournal.com]

X3

IT'S SO GOOD I LOVE IT!!! And the voice acting is great - BRITISH ACCENTS FTW LOL

Re: [Random RP Journal Wut LOL PROFESSOR LAYTON |D]

[loobeeinthesky.livejournal.com]

I won't argue about Brit accents winning :P Oh i'm ordering it right now, I'll nick my sisters DS if I have to.

Re: [Random RP Journal Wut LOL PROFESSOR LAYTON |D]

[lolli-licker.livejournal.com]

YAY!! Hurray for exploiting siblings XD

[kyriesanctus.livejournal.com]

D8 But you don't suck. Far from it, actually. Matt's whole List of Rules thing was a stroke of brilliance. XD I don't think there could be a better Matt for Nihil~

I hope your hand gets better soon. ;o;

[loobeeinthesky.livejournal.com]

I just think he fails as he's the only character in the whole com who's not doing anything. I just suck at getting my characters (that includes Gevanni, which is why he's dropped) to do anything because I'm too shy to push them. And I'm finding it hard to get over my log fear, if anyone even hints I'll make excuses up to not do it which defeats point number one of getting him to do something, muuu T_T It's why I'm stuck between keep or drop.

I blame the rules thing on watching Scream that very night ^_~

It's not hurting so badly now but I have a great bruise. Not that bruises are great but it's fun to get out of doing chores because you mum thinks it looks nasty ^^